Currently Listening One of the Boys By Gretchen Wilson see related

There Goes the Neighborhood....

            I went and saw Gretchen Wilson in concert Sunday night. It freakin rocked! Let me tell you that woman can put on a show. She is very entergetic and she just has fun and gets the audience involved and makes it a lot of fun for them too. And man does she have a great set of vocal chords on her. I mean I love her music on cd but she's even better in person which is good because some artists suck in person. Heartland and Tracy Lawarence was with her. They were also very good and put on a wonderful show. It was the first "real" concert I had ever been too and I bought tickets for right next to the stage. It was at Eastwood Feild where the scrappers play. I don't know I had fun.

         Friday I take baby Gary for his first set of shots besides the ones they give in the hospital when babies are born. I am not looking forward to that at all. Everyone tells me I am going to cry seeing them hold him still and give him those shots. I hope not but I very well might. I don't know. I love him more than anything in the world including myself. I don't know what my life would be without him. He gives purpose to my life when I was to the point where I almost felt like I had no purpose. I don't know what I would do without him at all. He was and is my saving grace. He gave my life a whole new meaning. Yeah it's scary as hell knowing I am in charge of another life. That how he turns out depends on me and how well I raise him and what all I do for him. But I wouldn't trade it for anything. He is what makes my life whole now. Nothing esle really matters to me but the safety and happiness of that little man. I see him and I can't be mad at anything anymore. He smiles at me now and my heart melts. He's a part of me and I can't believe sometimes that I helped in the making of such a beautiful baby boy. I don't know.

       Well not too much is new except all of that. Hope all is well with everyone and I hope everyone stays safe and enjoys themselves since the begining of the new school year comes near.

Love you all.

I love life

So much has changed in my life yet so much has stayed the same
Current mood: content

Hey there. I know it really has been a very long time since i have posted anything. But I finally got internet at my mom's house. So yeah I hope all is well for all of you in whatever is going on in your lives. Isn't it funny how the older we get the more things change and how fast time flies. I never believed my mom and everyone else who said the older you get the quicker you watch your life go past but it is so true. I can't believe that I am now 21 and a mother of a two month old beautiful baby boy. If someone would have told me when I graduated high school that by the time i was 21 I would have moved to cincinnatti and went to school for a while and moved back to e.p. and lived on my own for a while and that I would be working at gorbys for two years and that I would be a mom I would have told them that they were crazy and needed to be placed in a mental institution. but alas here I am and I wouldn't trade any minute of it. I love the way things are. Yeah I still have my days like everyone else where all I would love to do is become a missing person. The only thing that changed with that is I never want to leave my son. But all you can do is take it one day at a time right? It seems to work okay.

So other than the fact that I am a mom there isn't much new. I have made a few new friends. Lost touch with some I love and miss dearly. But the crazy ferris wheel of life still keeps spinning.

I am still working at the wonderful gorby's full time. It really is sucking the soul out of me. I need to find a new job where I make more money and am a little bit more appriceated.

anyway that's all for now folks. I finally have internet at my moms so I should update a little more often then I used to. Love you all and hope the best for you all.

It is a miracle...I am making a new post

So yeah I am sure you all think I am dead but I am not. Just don't really have any contact with the outside world besides East Palestine. That would be because I lost my old cell phone and along with it all of the phone numbers I once had....I now have a new cell...the number is 330-398-1519 so if you guys feel the need to get into contact with me and let me know that you are alive and well...do so. I love you all and miss you dearly.

A lot has changed since I last wrote. I am now living back at home with the parents. I am doing this because I am 6 months pregnant and I wanted to be able to save money to get a nice place of my own sometime in the near future. For now I am working at Gorby's still but after I have the baby I hope to go back to school to get some kind of degree to get a better job. I am having a boy for those who are curious. I am very excited. Well that's all I really feel like updating right now so if you want to know more or to talk to me call....

LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!

Happy Birthday to me....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! I can't believe it, I'm 20 today. It's so weird. Yeah I know I'm still young, but I feel so old for some reason. When I think of all the more time my little sisters have left in school and everything it makes me feel real old. Elaine hung out with me last night and we stayed up all night and just talked and listened to music that made us remeber the past and things of that sort. It was a ton of fun. I love that girl. I know I kinda disappeared off the face of the planet for most of you. Just been real busy trying to keep the bills paid, not such a fun thing to do but it must be done. I actually ended up with the day off today, amazing I know. I think I'm gonna go out to dinner with my family later today and then who knows. Hopefully do something fun because it's my birthday and I want to do something. But then I remind myself that I'm broke and I live in East Palestine Ohio and there's never anything fun to do around here unless you're an alcoholic lol. So I've realized there are a LOT of June birthdays. yay for June.

Today is the official first day of summer and it's cool and rainy here. Just my luck right, my only day off and my birthday to boot. Oh well. Life goes on. I miss everyone a lot and I wish I had money to see all of you. One day soon hopefully. I feel like a terrible friend because I don't keep in touch like I should, but know it's not really because I don't want to, it's just because my life is hectic, as I am sure yours is too, thus why you have not got in touch with me either.

I wish I had something of value to say on here but really not too much is going on in my life. 

Bradly (Rosie's little boy that I love like my own) said my name for the first time that I've heard yesterday. It was while Rosie was on the phone with me and then she said he was blowing me kisses. Man do I love that little boy with everything in me.

Still don't know what I want to do with the rest of my life but I would like to figure it out soon because I am tired of Gorby's. Not the customers, I love them, and not neccesarily the work but just the drama and things of that sort. It's wearing me down because I have to work a lot of hours to even attempt to keep up with bills. I need to find some where that I won't have to work as much and still be able to make ends meet.

Okay well guys I love you all, hope all is well and all are safe. Have a good one.

So living on my own is going well so far. I'm broke all the time, but hey I expected that at first. Things with my parents and I are slowly getting patched up. I like living on my own, but at times it can be lonely. I've been working a lot as usual but trying to have a lot of fun as well.

I've been doing a lot of reminicising lately, looking through old pictures, old notes and cards that friends gave me and things of that sort. Makes me sad but happy at the same time. I mean I've come a long way in the past two years, but it's weird knowing all that high school stuff is over. You know? My friend Michelle and I were talking about it the other day and we were saying how it's wierd being done and kinda sad, like we were in such a rush to get out of highschool and now we really wouldn't mind going back for a while. I don't know. It's crazy this thing they call life.

Still have no clue what I want to do with the rest of my life, some days I wonder if I will ever figure it out. I feel almost as if I'm in a rut and nothing is changing and everyone else around me is moving at a fast speed and I'm just standing still. I don't know I guess that happens to a lot of 20 year olds. But for some reason I feel alone in this. Maybe because all of my friends either are in college, have families already, or at least a career of some kind where they can move up.

So I've decided that I want a puppy at some point. I really want something like that. I think it would be fun.

I've also decided to try and find a job at a place that is open 24 hours so I can work there part time after I get off work at Gorby's. I need more money. Being on your own is not easy. I've started to learn this.

Everyone is telling me I'm losing weight like crazy. Maybe it's because I don't have much food at my house and I'm always too busy anyway to think about eating. I'm always working or sleeping, or spending the few hours I have to myself with my friends or family. But I still eat so don't be worried.

Okay well I have some things to get done before I work today at 3. So I must go. Hope all of you are well and Love you all.

I'll leave you with my schedule for this week.

Today-3-close

Tues-3-close

Wed-3-close

Thurs-5-close

Fri-off

Sat-3-close

Sun- 3-close.

So come a visit me. I love seeing my friends! :)